pope

this is really bothering me. i've been crying nonstop now for the whole day that the news has been covering the pope's condition. i just can't stop crying everytime i see, like file footage of him or something... i'm just so touched by his presence and his being... you can really see how wonderful and kind and nice he is and how loved he is... listening to robbie williams greatest hits to the song "angels". eventhough it's for a girl, the message is strong. there's also this sarah mclachlan song "full of grace" that's also approriate. just offers you solace.... i really don't know what to think or say or feel.

i'm not a devout catholic, i don't hear mass every sunday; i don't observe the rosary month (the last time i did that was in high school or college); i'm just not an active catholic. but i wear a crucifix. i wear my faith right next to my heart because i believe that you don't have to be an "active" catholic to be considered rightful and pure of soul and heart. if you practice what they preach and not just for others' sake, but because you freely want to, that's what i think is the true christian. you don't have to be good because others are present. you do good because that's what's right and that's what you feel like doing. the pope taught me many things. like i said earlier, i made a paper on him back when i was in grade school. the teacher asked us to come up with 3 people we think influenced us the most. i picked mr. & mrs. john kennedy and karol wojtyla. the first two because they forever changed the way we look at america and how they re-defined the intentions and culture of that country so well that until NOW, they're still being talked about and books are still being written about them.

the latter because he was the quiet, loving, caring, forgiving and holy man that he is. i remember writing that he looked like a teddy bear, with his big broad shoulders and his eyes... the kindest eyes you have ever seen. even now as i surf through the news sites and watch cnn and local news about him, i still get teary-eyed, cry even. a person who could evoke so much emotion from others is truly great. i do know one thing for sure: that when the time comes that he has to go and be with his Maker, he will be the guardian angel for all of us, looking in on us and guiding us to the path and way that God wants us to go. hoping for the pope's recovery...