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OK. so it's not a blog. it's actually a podcast. peyton's, to be exact. every time i listen to it (i listen to it almost everyday --- check it on itunes), i just have a "good" feeling about my life. i mean, not because peyton has it bad, no. when ONE TREE HILL first started, i immediately liked peyton. first of all, i'd never heard of a name like that before. secondly, her mysteriousness and the whole i'm-a-cheerleader-but-i-listen-to-punk attittude and the leather jackets and short skirts and curly hair and webcam and drawings. i guess you can say i'm one of the original "leytons" (to those not in the know, that's lucas and peyton for you ;))

tender - feeder

i've gone so far as to listen to the podcasts and transcribe them and just read it and "figure it out". maybe i'm reading too much into it (if there's a pun, sorry!) but i can't help it! it's one of my obsessions, that show and everything about it. and now that they've gone on hiatus and won't be back until january 11, 2006, i dunno what i'll do between now and then! maybe go bonkers. i dunno... but i digress. peyton was one of the characters i could actually relate to; not because i was a cheerleader in high school or i'm pretty or whatever. she felt crap and she wasn't afraid to "show" it (through her paintings and drawings and taste in music). a direct quote that really made me turn around and go, hey! that's me! was this: "- I don't think of my music as depressing - it's, it’s the opposite really, you know? It comforts me, tells me that it's OK to feel sad or scared or alone. And that I'm not alone in how I feel, and that's a part of being alive. It's like a rainy day, you know, a rainy day makes most people sad, OK? You're stuck inside, it's all gloomy, no sunny walk in the park going on but I have to say, I love a rainy day. It's just an excuse to stay inside and drink hot chocolate, hang out in my room or read a book or just have a day to be alone. I don't wanna go on a walk in the park anyway?" ---from podcast 2

that's me! i like the rain! i like being sad and depressed because in a twisted kinda way, that's what makes me happy. drama. ha! it acts like an outlet for me. and it's great because peyton's helping in a way. i dunno. it's like mark schwahn (or whoever writes the podcasts) can read my mind and puts my thoughts in peyton and lets it be heard by millions of people.

for blue skies - strays don't sleep

i actually was waiting for the seventh podcast, but when i watched the 9th episode, i understood why there wasn't any. actually, i felt like peyton's scenes were like her podcast in a way... you'll figure it out when you watch the episode.

there's no harm. go on. you know you want to: http://peytonspodcast1.blogspot.com

anyway, just wanted to write that down before i lose it and it turns into another unwritten thought. later guys.