business is business apparently

so i work for this company that prides itself on being the awesomest place to work at anywhere in the world, right? and yet the longer i'm here, the more suffocated i feel. i know sometimes airing out emotions online are not ideal, but i've got nowhere to go. besides friends and family, there's the internet so let's use it since it's at our disposal anyways. here goes...

my boss recently commented on a post i made on facebook:

aren't you even going to ask our OPINION on the matter? can't take a suggestion, i guess. dictatorship at it's best.

she commented the following:

Business is never a democracy. Rules were made by government for businesses to follow. They weren't asked for their opinion either. =)

then i said:

i respect business decisions boss. i can't seem to swallow it right now... maybe if i get the hang of it after some time. =) will stay optimistic!

to which she commented:

Great to know you will try to stay optimistic. =) We can surely talk about it some more when I see you. Maybe some clarification would help. =) Kaya mo yan!!

i was supposed to reply something along the lines of "i just thought we had a say on the matter" but deleted it and changed the reply to something more respectful and cordial to appease her. it's still a public site and i was actually embarrassed when i saw her comment on my rant. i can't help but feel like i was unfairly taken advantage of because i worked my butt off each and every day i've been at work and then they take away the one thing that we, i, have the most tangible piece of insurance: bonuses. i guess it wasn't really to take it away but a business decision recently made affects everyone so negatively that i can't help but be emotional about it. suddenly there's no guarantee anymore.

uncertainty never sat well with me. i hate it. it's up there with regret and guilt.

granted that i still have a couple of weeks to adjust to the idea of this new and improved system, i still feel like puking. it left such a sour taste in my mouth that i may not be able to focus as much as i have been doing lately.

we all have goals and dreams and plans. this? this was not part of my plan. and i HATE adjusting! i've had enough of it already from my last workplace. i adjusted and it got me nowhere because the politicking was so under the table and so evil already that i was surprised i still had some integrity when i left. i just can't shake the feeling that this is not gonna end well.

what pisses me off too is that she (my boss) said business was never a democracy. ha! the fact that it was even created proves that it was born out of democratic thoughts and ideas. yeah, but i do know what she was talking about so yeah she still has a point. i'm just stubborn. and i like that.

anyway, i'll probably not think about it in the long run not until someone brings it up again or maybe when i'm already doing it. but in the meantime, let me wile away on my sites and watch my show/s...