maybe i forgot to include in my profile that i absolutely HATE mundane things and doing habitual, routinary stuff. there. i said it. actually, wrote it. but fuck! does this life suck or what? at least, mine does. i'm so jealous of my friends who're abroad, having the time of their lives. and i'm going out of my mind out here, trying to live on a (supposedly) call center salary (but honestly, wage workers, baka mas malaki pa kinikita nyo saken) supporting myself, some bills at the house and my dog. taking care of a dog is a huge thing, taking care of any animal is. when they get sick, you have to bring them to the vet and pray for the best; you have to bathe, feed them, make sure they have enough food and water to last them the few hrs you're not at home because the people in the house are just not animal lovers... and you can't even buy the things you WANT. just the stuff you NEED. oh! believe me. there's a giganormous difference between the two and don't even get me started on that! in the end, sometimes i just ask why am i even here??? it's all so dramatic, but i'm at that point right now, k? so stop bitchin'. let ME do that.
i'm just so fuckin' fed up with things that have been happening and i feel like i can't vent it fast enough! there're just too many thoughts inside my head right now that are bursting to be heard... or, in this case, written and read.
i never thought life would be this freakin' bad, ya know? it's just all too much to process, sometimes i just don't want to care anymore. but i'm human, so damn me to hell bcoz i can't help but friggin' care! i used to be such an optimist, but lately, i've just been so full of shitless thoughts, i'm spouting off curse words every second. even i'm dispppointed. i didn't have this kind of attitude before, dammit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! another question: how in da hell did that happen?
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