i love hearing mass at this adoration chapel i've frequented for the last few months. the best thing about it is there's no cellphone signal :) no distractions whatsoever - the best way to talk to God :)
the mass was the typical one i've had for the past few days, yet the priest's (Father Lo) following words just knocked the wind out of me:
is it hard to forgive or not?
it hit so close to home because i had been through something really devastating in my life fairly recently. i had never, to this day, been able to forgive the people who "did me wrong". it was so weird, it was like God was speaking directly to me. Father Lo said to forgive and let go because in letting go, you will find peace and where there's peace, there is God. i have yet to do that. i'll have to do some serious soul-searching and work on being at peace with myself FIRST and THEN being at peace with forgiving others.
whoever says forgiving is easy is a big, fat liar. forgiving people who ridiculed you, mocked you, said bad and untrue things about you just to bring you down is HELL NO WAY easy! imagine having to forgive the person you hate the most in this world. now multiply that by a gazillion. that's how i feel right now; and that's the feeling that i have been carrying around since last year. what a burden to bear.
i should have included "try your darnedest to forgive and forget" in the list below. i wonder how long it will take me to actually complete this most difficult and (for me) atrocious task at hand? how did Jesus do it? tell me, is there a step-by-step manual on forgiving i can read and follow? hey! bring it on, because i'm GREAT with following directions!
kidding aside, i would LOVE it if someone, somewhere out there in the vast space that's now known as a blogosphere, can help me with this and teach me the tricks of the trade to forgiving whole-heartedly. this is one lesson i am very much willing to learn until i turn blue.
"again by heart." - regular joe
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