thief

did your mother ever steal money from you? mine just did. i know had 270 in my wallet, and when i got thw money out to pay for delivery, 200 bucks were gone. wow. galeng.

no one else was in the room. she watched tv and i could see everything that was happening, but i guess it was when i was talking to jesse on the phone... speechless ako.

under pressure

23 - jimmy eat world

i can feel it building... good news last night was when i got 30/30 calls perfect!!!! too bad it wasn't good enough coz last month, i got 3 mistakes so i haven't been certified yet... 32.8 pa acht ko eh passing was 32.5 PRESSURE!!!! gosh! kakatakot! swerte ko lang kse sun i have work so kme mga unang na-rerecord eh puro transfer pa un... grabe....

heavenly sound? my dog drinking/slurping waterÜ super cute!!!! i took him for a walk again and now he's sleeping under my chair... sigh...

elsewhere - bethany joy lenz
loverboy - mariah carey

sarap! 3-day rest for me! nothing to freakin' eat here, damn! wawa naman doggie ko... will watch phonebooth at noon... hay sarap! pahinga rin sa wakas!

new hairÜ

everybody's changing - keane

i've never been happier! i finally had my hair cut and it's fantastic!!!!!!!!!! it's a really cute version of this hairstyle:

re-offender - travis; the first cut is the deepest - sheryl crow

i was really scared at first, and also because the magazines i was reading were featuring women who had long hair and i thought it was gonna turn out as a really bad cut; like totally NOT what you envisioned it to be... but i was dead wrong! the guy, roland, he was fantastic!!!!!!! highly recommended to those living in the don antonio area, go to david's and ask for roland, galing sya!ÜÜÜ

lie in the sound - trespassers william

was re-watching black hawk down... having problems with the tv, it won't start when i press the power button on the remote. fuck wag naman ngayon!!!!!!! 24 is showing next week on axn!!!!!! i'm SOOOOOOOOOOO excited!!!!!

thinking of putting highlights in my hair para ok naman... or bka cellophane or something. basta ayoko ng white hair! sobrang peeve ko yon, i dunno why... i have a thing with getting older, i guess. always have. next year, when i turn 24, i'm gonna get a tattoo on my arm like the 24 symbol on the show ;) can't wait!!!

the good kind - the wreckers

looking up tom (thomas) guiry in imdb and i thought i'd seen him before! while i was watching b.h.d., he seemed kinda familiar, so i looked him up in mystic river, and lo and behold, his credits include b.h.d.! am i good or what? ;) ...watched a trailer for four brothers and i have to say i kinda want to watch it. had/have a long-time crush on mark wahlberg ;) he's so cute!!! so is his brother, donnie wahlberg (loved him in band of brothers); love the way they talk! that boston accent is really hot!

kill - jimmy eat world

i'm beginning to REALLY love jimmy eat world... they have kill and this other song, 23 which is really my favorite of theirs. that one is so epic; sweeps you, you know? and when they were featured in oth for a full episode, that was awesome! they're like u2... they have different songs, but they keep their identity and dignity as a group/band intact. that's important i think when you're a band, especially a rock band.

when the stars go blue - bethany joy lenz & tyler hilton

can't wait to go to work tomorrow to show off my new hair. i have to get film so we can document it thoughÜ hehe! c ya!!!!

true blog

what'd i say - ray charles

i really was supposed to put in how happy i am i'm getting an eday next week on thursday: the start of the 3rd season of 24, baby, yahoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh my gosh! walang katapusang trade toh pag hindi thurs ang off ko!!!!!!!! fuck!!!!!!! pero shit worth it namanÜ can't wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hay nako

sometimes what you think is good becomes a liability... something sometimes you wanna get rid of... i plan on getting my hair cut today; found a hairstyle on charisma carpenter that i kinda like. but i don't want it to be super short. the article said she picked it off of christy turlington, so now i'm finding the same hairstyle on christy on the internet!

i also have to bring my dog to the vet for a possible xray and then drop some shit (literally) to the medical exam at work... hay nako talaga! bwiset! tapos ngayon pa nakalabas pa si booby kanina dahil sa isang ASSHOLE dito!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hay nako nanggagalaiti talaga ako ngayon bwiset!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MAMATAY KA NA TRACEY ATIENZA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KAKARAMAHIN KA NG GINAGAWA MO PUTANGINA MONG HAYOP KA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dagnammit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my dog got into another accident last night (most probably)... it's my fault, i didn't let him in before i left and when i was getting ready to leave, he was already fighting with the ugly dog... sobrang totoo na kanina kse masama na kutob ko, so totoo nga that when you form a bond with your pet, kung ano mangyari, nafi-feel mo talaga... kakaawa nga eh. ung fron left leg naman nya ngayon napahamak, but not that bad like the last one... asked the vet (na sobrang suki ko na!) to come here ulit... just waiting...

good calls so far, perfect first 15 ko... kailangan ko lang ayusin ung next week... siiiiiiiiigghhh....

bryan greenburg!!!

OH MY GOSH!!!!!!!!!!! may movie sya!!!!!!!!! it's called prime and i love the trailer!!!!!!!

high spirits

OTH soundtrack (again!)

5:45am - was interviewed for the RTA position for msn... interesting interview... they asked the basic and not-so-basic questions... i was nervous out of my mind!!!!!! i was literally shaking in my boots! AS IN!!!! i thought kse wala nang interview, i was originally scheduled for a 10.30pm one pero wala naman... so when tin gave me the piece of paper that said log out at 5.45-6 and look for paulo rta, sobrang natakot na ko! but they (interviewers) were niceÜ

start of the day was pretty bad for me. bad trip ung papunta and mga first few calls ko, so good luck kung na-q.a. ako kanina! fuck.

i have this HUGE secret that i CANNOT write here, it's too big. i have to keep it to myself... it's so juicy!!!! ;)

i went for a walk with my dog with the intention of also getting his nametag/dogtag(?) from dog city, but on the way there, we encountered 3 fucking dogs!!!!!! they ganged up on my doggie so booby just ran all the way home, he was too scared =( now he's kinda mad at me (i can understand) coz i think he blames me for bringing him there. malay ko ba na 3 aso don! fuck! never again. punyetang mga aso yon!

naiinis pa ko kse ung inorderan ko ng propolis creme for abby hindi nagttxt back kung nakabili na, para di na ko umasa, para ako na lang bili... fuck talaga. guys, if you're asked a question, please naman reply naman kayo, kahit ba negative pa sagot nyo, basta ba may reply lang. kung walang load, makitxt! what's the problem with that??? gosh!

i miss my friends...

bwisit! pangit ng ACHT ko! fuck.

:) it's OTH's finale tonight!!!! yahooooooooo!!!!!!! but i know what's gonna happen, so i can't wait for the 3rd season already! shet! super bitin itong finale nila! the 3rd season starts in october in the states, so kelan pa kaya un dito??? waaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!

ok. i'm gonna watch oprah now. later.

chocolate everywhere!!!!

OTH soundtrack!!!!! Ü

whattaday! i didn't get to sleep until 7pm and i just woke up now... saw one of the best movies this year, charlie and the chocolate factoryÜ

but i got to hang out with a really good friend, sarah, today. we heard mass first then went off to the mall to eat, hang out and watch the movie... she is so fucking thin, that girl! grabe! as in payat! sabi ko nga para syang drug addict sa kapayatan nya! ...got to see her sis also, raya, who told me so many things about a really good companyÜ

but i was really happy coz i got to buy the one tree hill soundtrack!!!! sigh!!!!!!!! i love the songs so much i downloaded them then erased them now because i have them in an original cd... i have a thing about piracy: i hate it. i'm not a hypocrite, i downloaded them because i just really loved the songs so much. this is a highly recommended cd, for those of you who're into compilations and soundtracks. five stars!

ok. and now onto the movie... johnny depp is, like kiefer sutherland, one of the best in his generation... my three faves? him, kiefer and sean penn. they all started pretty much almost the same time, give or take a few years... but now looking back at their movie/tv choices, they all prove they're so prolific and great actors... ok. enuff. basically, since i'd seen the trailer a dozen times and have visited every site there is about this friggin' great movie, i came prepared and knew of the "secrets" (courtesy of imdb.com) and trivia... and i enjoyed it even more! tim burton is such a magnificent creator/imaginator (is there such a word?) the set just blew me away! the most telling thing is that it was such a colorful movie; and if you're a burton fan you'd understand what i'm talking about. all burton movies have a dark, sinister tone to it. this one's no different (in my opinion), but it was masked by all this color, which was just genius... to add a little history as to why and how will wonka is the way he is was great, too. helped get a different perspective to it.

my new favorite actor? freddie highmore just stole my heart! i can't say enough good things about him, he so dagnamit cute!!!! shit! his eyes just got me and he perfected that i'm-such-a-poor-boy-you-can't-help-but-love-me look. he is so adorable and kudos to johnny depp for suggesting to burton to get highmore in. when johnny depp is the one who recommends to the director you're good enough for the job because he was impressed in a previous movie collaboration, that speaks volumes. and highmore did not disappoint, i actually got emotional during the first few scenes before he got the ****** ******

the humor was subtle, yet incredibly funny; wonderfully delivered/executed. the oompa loompas were scene-stealers... fave scenes? every wonka bit --- i mean, johnny depp was just absolutely the embodiment of all the things he was inspired with about that role... he had that funny, dark, creepy, weird, o.c., sad, can't-put-my-finger, cute (he IS johnny depp!) thing going on. that haircut is so horrible, but it worked! i loved the blueberry song. fun-ny!

i so would love to get my hands on the white/red goggles/shades they wore in the tv scene! i love that!!!!!

and now to go on a mini-review about the latest addition to my cd collection... one tree hill's creator mark schwahn summed it up when he wrote in the cd jacket: "the song (lie in the sound) is epic. heartbreaking. but at the same time comforting." that's what the entire cd is. if you're a HUGE oth fan (i mean, completely OBSESSED with it), this cd is a must-have. all of the songs remind oyou of good and bad times in the show, and as an added bonus, you get a whole new music perspective. the bands are awesome and really good. faves? almost everything, that's why it's such a keeper! the theme of course is so unforgettable, it's what gavin degraw a star in the u.s.; song #2 is one of my faves, see previous blogs... getting michelle branch and jessica harp together was "the good kind" ;) one of the defining moments of the show was an episode called "with arms outstretched" and re-offender was featured in that episode as well as the continuing one... a haunting song. travis is fucking amazing!

i am a HUGE, HUGE naley fan, but i have to admit that the tyler hilton/bethany joy lenz remake of when the stars go blue is one of the best ones in the cd... bethany has such a cool, smooth voice, paired up with tyler's raspy one. an already great song made even betterÜ keane's everybody's changing is one of those poignant ones that you can't get out of your head when you hear it once. the lyrics are great... all of the songs' are. i just remember the scene when brooke was putting up pictures of everyone on her mirror/dresser and this song was playing...

mixtape, sidewalks, overdue and funny little feeling were surprises... they were familiar songs, but the titles sidetracked me. every single one totally reminds me of a scene/moment in the show, if not the show in general.

lie in the sound is the perfect way to end the cd. it's the song heard when naley get into the apartment after they get married for their really sweet honeymoon. all in all, the tracks chosen were all perfect. kudos to the producers and the guys who (i can tell) had a difficult undertaking of chosing just 14 songs to put in here. please. take a cue from that other show (the o.c.) and make more soundtracks!!!Ü people have to be familiarized with artists like citizen cope, switchfoot, ryan adams, pete yorn, yellowcard, velvet revolver, dashboard confessional, matthew ryan, michelle featherstone, eastmountainsouth, howie day... and they deserve the attentionÜ

this was an awesome day... now i have to let my doggie back in the house before whatever happens to him. ciao!

blah week

the scientist - coldplay

another uneventful day at home and at work... but i'm getting closer and closer to my ultimate goal, which is to leave this friggin' hellhole and be with my brother and other family in the u.s./canada... whatever it takes.

i was supposed to go out tonight with a friend to watch charlie and the chocolate factory, alas, he's not replying to my text messages... whatever.

everyday's been gloomy, both for me and the weather; i love rainy dayz, but it's bad for my dog, coz he can't go out, the poor guy =( he's stuck here when it's raining... i just let him out to pee... he hasn't taken a bath yet even... i can imagine he's bored and lonely... when i get outta here, i'm gonna bring him along.

like i said, an uneventful week and day off, so i've really got nothing to say... ciao.

everybody's changing... and moving on?

everybody's changing - keane

just got back from napoli's from the twins' birthday celebration. i left 6pm... why did i get back so quickly? i didn't want to, but my best friend had to leave so for her not to feel left out, i left also. besides, it was raining cats and dogs... there's gonna be a storm...

silence is easy - starsailor

i was so excited to go because i'd be seeing old friends again after such a long time. surprise? aimee's back and i never even knew about it. apparently, her homecoming was a "secret". whatever that means. i feel as though she's changed. and not just now. last year, at her bon voyage, she was kinda distant. i dunno. i guess it's lack of constant communication that's why she's not as warm anymore? i'm going nuts. i know.

the good kind - the wreckers (one of my favesÜ)

i was thinking of going to work for an OT, but thought better of it. i'll be working straight through from tomorrow til wed anyway, so why slave over it? that's just the way my twisted mind works, i guess.

it's so nice to know that ruthie and i have the same plans for next year. baka fatima na rin ako. but i have yet to inquire with trinity about their nursing course... ho (ho, ho) well!

just lose it - eminem

it was so nice to see the francis and anthony again... gj and mikko were there too... and cecil tabunda was there too, with her boyfriend... francis' gf aiko was there too. super nice nya grabe! they deserve each otherÜ she's also taking up medicine at feu nova and i asked about nursing sabi nya dapat daw pala straight from h.s. ung magn-nursing... =(

things to do:
1. get a haircut
2. buy freakin' cds
3. get plenty of rest
4. stop making fucking side comments
... so far, not bad

blah... trankaso

wed was such a bad day for me. fuck! tues night i was working right? i was feeling bad already before i started because i was having this unbelievably severe body pain. i'm not exaggerating! as in parang namamanas ka na naipit lahat ng muscles mo. so the whole time i was working, i kept stretching, yawning, shivering because the cold was just too much. i ended up taking alaxan just to get through the day... even contemplated getting an etime again, but thought better of it. wala na nga me sweldo, ano pa kaya matitira next wek? good luck na lang.

***what do i hate? rats! specifically, got-nothing-better-to-do rats***

memories of naley... playing in the background "dare you to move"

so when i got home wed morning, after i checked the emails, i felt the body ache coming on big time so i had tata buy advil and i just slept right off. as in, no more tv, i dozed off and woke up in a sweat... but i think the advil had a side effect coz my eyes ballooned up like fucking blimps... i still felt really awful, dizzy... reported absent for work. DAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMNNNNNNNN!!!!!!! good luck tlga sa sweldo.

but tomorrow, i'm a happy girl... i get to see my long-time friends because the twins invited us to a birthday celebration at napoli's... gosh i miss those guys!

farah fooh got terminated. sucks big time! wala na ko ka-chikahan... sya lang naman link namin to the "intriga" world... hehe! ...i learned so much from her... and it's not just the rumor mill k? she gave me another perspective to stuff. farah lee, thank you. i'll miss you. you're a great friend and an even better mom. good luck! God bless!

cue pete francis "untold" love this fucking song!

what am i doing right now? shit. nothing. i thought that 24 was on based on skycable's schedule channel, but apparently, it's not. instead it's the lost show.... i hate that show.

seriously thinking of enrolling in trinity college. if by some miracle i pass the entrance exams or whatnot... still have to call up to inquire. i knew a girl once who worked with me at ibm who studied there... have to look her up in friendsterÜ

soak up the sun - sheryl crow (nice!)

this is how a heart breaks - rob thomas (this song is fucking crazy! you should hear it live)

the songs are the ones worth mentioning playing on my internet radio... shout out to hitsradio.com

anyway, i'm just trying to disassemble my brain so that i would know what to fucking do with my life... never thought "figuring out" things takes a long time! shit. hopefully all bodes well.. i've been having dreams of what my brother wrote in an email: You have your OWN HOME....and I'm not just talking> about a small bungalow....I'm talking about a> 3-bedroom, 2 bath, centralized, 3 car garage MANSION> where you can do whatever you want and no one can> fuck with you...not even Hitler. Mercedez, BMW in> the garage....all the $ in the bank.....maybe retire> early and spend the rest of your life on the beach> somewhere. Now is that something worth sacrificing 4> yrs of schoolwork over? I think so.

i have just been daydreaming about having a house in canada with my dog and my own car/s Ü i just can't wait to live there and LIVE ON MY OWN. whatever it takes. shit. basta makaalis lang ako with my dog.

my fave song at the moment

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dandy warhols - we used to be friends

hmph... stop complaining bitch!

***my dog's sick. again. =( =( =( he got an infection from fighting with the other dogs in the neighborhood... it's kinda disappointing just coz i feel like my money's going to vet checkups and food and stuff. i mean, i was really looking forward to watching "the island" with a friend and i had to stay home to take care of my doggie... i don't want to complain, but i can't help it. yes, i'm selfish that way... but if you guys only knew what i go through everyday, you'd understand... it's not just my professional life, it's the personal and everything else... i feel like i'm tired all the time, even when i got a good night's rest. i constantly worry about things and my mind is like mush now from all the worrying and thinking i've been doing...

i'm careful of not putting ALL my thoughts into this thing, but sometimes i get tires of writing in my journal, and typing's faster!

...my dog's begging to be let out... but i know i can't under the vet's orders. his infection might worsen...

i have one more day left to "rest"... monday i go back to work... oh happy day.

nazi bitch

FUCK YOU, CITA BORROMEO GARCIA. KAKARMAHIN KA SA LAHAT NG MGA GINAWA MO, PUTANGINA MO!

life sucks. deal with it

maybe i forgot to include in my profile that i absolutely HATE mundane things and doing habitual, routinary stuff. there. i said it. actually, wrote it. but fuck! does this life suck or what? at least, mine does. i'm so jealous of my friends who're abroad, having the time of their lives. and i'm going out of my mind out here, trying to live on a (supposedly) call center salary (but honestly, wage workers, baka mas malaki pa kinikita nyo saken) supporting myself, some bills at the house and my dog. taking care of a dog is a huge thing, taking care of any animal is. when they get sick, you have to bring them to the vet and pray for the best; you have to bathe, feed them, make sure they have enough food and water to last them the few hrs you're not at home because the people in the house are just not animal lovers... and you can't even buy the things you WANT. just the stuff you NEED. oh! believe me. there's a giganormous difference between the two and don't even get me started on that! in the end, sometimes i just ask why am i even here??? it's all so dramatic, but i'm at that point right now, k? so stop bitchin'. let ME do that.

i'm just so fuckin' fed up with things that have been happening and i feel like i can't vent it fast enough! there're just too many thoughts inside my head right now that are bursting to be heard... or, in this case, written and read.

i never thought life would be this freakin' bad, ya know? it's just all too much to process, sometimes i just don't want to care anymore. but i'm human, so damn me to hell bcoz i can't help but friggin' care! i used to be such an optimist, but lately, i've just been so full of shitless thoughts, i'm spouting off curse words every second. even i'm dispppointed. i didn't have this kind of attitude before, dammit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! another question: how in da hell did that happen?

THE BEST FORWARDED EMAIL EVER... and my fave shows

i missed my fave shows lately bec of some cable shit...
i am gonna buy me a mean dvd player and watch one tree hill and 24 and the o.c. and buffy and roswell and veronica mars over and over and over again!

this week's been stressful as usual, but who doesnt have that right? esp. now, in this time of whateverness. fuck! what the fuck is happening to our country? well, i think one email forwarded to me recently can pretty much sum it up. i think every tax-paying, honest person and hardworking person out there should read it:

FW: WALANG KWENTANG PINASThe sentiments of the writer are so true... About themanner of expression, mejo violent but i respectit.... Many would ask, where is God amidst thesethings... my opinion - He is just waiting for us to let Him do things His way. Only in Him, we can find HOPE. God bless! :-)Kel

Galing sa isang ordinaryong manggawa sa Pilipinas Walang kwenta ang Pilipinas By: jawbreaker. (isang ordinaryong office worker naayaw na magbayad ng tax...ever!) Hindi ko na mapigilan ang sarili ko. Sukang-suka na kosa mga nangyayari sa bansang ‘to! Walang katapusang corruption, walang kamatayangpangbabatikos, pagbabatuhan ng tae atpagpapa-taasan ng ihi ng mga pulitiko sa bawat isa, walang tigil na imbestigasyon ng kung ano-anongisyu pero wala namang matinong resolusyon,walang puknat na pag-aagawan ng kapangyarihan sa pagitan ng mga partido, patuloy napagdami ng tamad at tangang Pilipino, patuloy napakikipaglaban ng ideolohiyang wala namang silbi. Ang gobyerno ng Pilipinas, talo pa ang septic tank nahinihigop ng Malabanan saksakan ng dumi at napakabaho. Kaya hindinakakapagtaka na ang Pilipinas ang isa sapinakamahirap at corrupt na bansa sa mundo. Kasi lahat sila bulok, lahat sila walang kwenta. Lahat silasugapa sa kapangyarihan at sa pera.

ANAK NG TETENG! !$#%Q!&!* @!!!!! KAHIT KRISTIYANO AKO, HINDI KO MAPIGILANG MAGMURA ATHILINGIN SA DIYOS (MINSAN NGA PATI SA DEMONYO) NAMAMATAY NA SILANG LAHAT AT I-BBQ SILA NG HABANG-BUHAY SA IMPIERNO. SINONG “SILA”? EH DI MGA CORRUPT NA GOVERNMENTOFFICIALS AND WORKERS, MGA TAMBAY NA PILIPINO NAANG LALAKI NG KATAWAN PERO HINDI NAMAN NAGTRATRABAHO AT HINDI NAGBABAYAD NG TAX, MGAMAYAYAMAN AT ARISTANG TAX EVADERS, PATI MGAAKTIBISTA, NPA AT IBA PANG IDEOLOGICAL GROUPS NA HINDI NAGBABAYAD NG TAX PERO PANG-GULO!!! MAMATAY NAKAYO!!! Lagi na lang sinasabi ng mga pulitiko: Ipaglaban angmasa! Tulungan ang masa! Mahalin ang masa! PUNYETA! MASA LANG BA ANG TAO SA PILIPINAS? SINO BA TALAGA ANG BUMUBUHAY SA PUNYETANG BANSANG TO? SAAN BA GALING ANG PANGPAGAWA NG MGA TULAY AT KALYE?SAAN BA GALING ANG PORK BARREL? SAAN BA GALING ANGPERANG KINUKURAKOT NYO? KAMI NA MGA MANGGAGAWA AT MIDDLE CLASS NA BAGO PAMAKUHA ANG SWELDO BAWAS NA KAMI ANG BUMUBUHAY SA WALANG KWENTANG BANSANA ‘TO!!!!!!!!! BAKIT YANG BANG MGA MASANG YAN NA LAGI NA LANG SENTRONG PLATAPORMA NG MGA PULITIKO EH NAGBABAYAD BA NGTAX???!!!! F**K YOU! KAHIT ISA SA MGA NAG-RA-RALLYING MGASQUATTER NA YAN, KAHIT SINGKO HINDI NAG-RE-REMITYAN SA BIR! PERO PINAPAKINGGAN BA KAMI NG GOBYERNO? LAGI NA LANG OPINYON NG MASA ANG INIINTINDI NGGOBYERNO. KUNG SINO ANG NAG-RA-RALLY, SA EDSA, SILA ANGNASUSUNOD. KUNG SINO ANG MAS MALAKAS SUMIGAW PERO WALA NAMANGECONOMIC CONTRIBUTION, SILA LAGI ANGFOCUS PAG MAY PROBLEMA. SILA LAGI ANG BIDA. KAMING MGA ORDINARYONG OFFICE WORKERS, OFW’S, LABORERSAT IBA PANG NAG-TRA-TRABAHO AT NAGBABAYAD NGTAX - KAMI ANG NAGPAPAKAHIRAP PARA BUHAYIN ANGPILIPINAS. KAMI ANG MGA TUNAY NA BAYANI NG BANSA!!!

Tuwing nakikita ko ang payslip ko, nag-iinit ang uloko at gusto kong maiyak sa inis. Napakalaki ngtax na binabawas sa akin pero ginagamit lang sawalang kwentang bagay ang perang pinaghirapan ko. Lahat ng pagtitipid ginagawa ko para suportahan angsarili ko, pamilya ko at ang punyetang bansang to.Ni hindi ako makabili ng chicken and spaghetti meal sa Jollibee kahit gutom na gutom na ko.Nag-tya-tyaga ako sa waffle na tig-P10, o kaya pagmay konting pera, junior bola-bola siopao saMini-Stop sa halangang P20. Eh kung yung pera ko na pinapangbabayad sa tax sa kinna lang napunta, eh di sana nakakapanood pa ko ngsine at least 2 beses sa isang buwan. Nakabili nasana ako ng bagong rubber shoes. Nakapagpagawa na sanaako ng sarili kong bahay. Yung tax na binabayad ko, karamihan nun derecho sabulsa ng mga corrupt na mga government officials atworkers. Habang hirap na hirap akong i-budgetang pera ko, sila naman nagpapakasarap sa mga mansyon.SUV’s at luxury cars pa ang dina-drive nila,samantalang ako sa pedicab lang sumasakay! P****** INA! PERA KO YANG PINAPAGPAPASASAAN NYO!!!!! Yung tax na binabayad ko, pinapangsuporta sa mgamahihirap. Saan ba galing ang pera pangpagawang housing at pagtulong sa mga mahihirap, di ba samga manggagawa na nagbabayad ng buwis! Pero karamihanng mahihirap, kung umasta kala mo inaapisila ng sobra. SA TOTOO LANG NO, KAYA ANG MGA MAHIHIRAP LALONG NAGHIHIRAP KASI MGA TAMAD! Ang daming mga tambay sa kalye na walang trabaho peroang laki ng katawan. Eh kung sila banagkargador sa pier eh di sana may pera sila. TAPOS WALA NA NGANG PERA, ANAK PA NG ANAK! PUNYETA! LALO NYO LANG PINAPADAMI ANG TAMAD AT TANGA SA MUNDO!!!!! Naaawa ako sa mga batang pakalat-kalat sa kalye atnamamalimos. Imbes na nag-aaral, dumadagdag langsila sa bilang ng mga future criminals sa Pinas.Hindi ako magtataka na yung batang nakita kongnamamalimos sa Cubao, pagkatapos ng ilang taoncellphone snatcher na. YUNG MGA MAGULANG NAMAN DYAN, COMMON SENSE LANG! HIRAP NA HIRAP NA NGA KAYO SA BUHAY, MANGDADAMAY PA KAYONG IBA?! PAPARAMIHAN NYO PA LAHI NYO! Palibhasa walang mga trabaho at walangpinagkaka-abalahan, kaya nagkakalabitan atnagsusundutan na lang maghapon, magdamag. Sa totoo lang, nakakabilib. Kasi kahit sa ilalim ng tulay osa kariton lang, nakakabuo pa rin ng bata! Ibigsabihin, maabilidad ang mga Pinoy. Kung gugustuhin, gagawan ng paraan. Kahit sa makipot,mabaho at maduming lugar - SOLVE! Isa pang mga grupo ng tao na nakakainis, yung mgaaktibista, NPA at kung ano-ano pang ideologicalpolitical groups. Sabi nila, mahal na mahal nilaang Pilipinas kaya pinagpalalaban nila ang kanilangmga adhikain.

PUNYETA! EH HINDI RIN KAYO NAGBABAYAD NG TAX! ANGKAKAPAL RIN NG MGA MUKHA NYO! MGA IPOKRITO! MAHAL DAW ANG PILIPINAS AYAW NAMANMAGBAYAD NG BUWIS! BAKIT MAY BIR COLLECTOR BA SA GITNA NG MENDIOLA ATEDSA?! MAY TAX COLLECTION BA SA BUNDOK?! WALA DIN NAMAN KAYONG MGA TRABAHO! KUNG MAY TRABAHOTALAGA KAYO, HINDI KAYO MAG-RA-RALLY DAHIL SAYANGANG SWELDO NYO PAG ABSENT KAYO! PAANO NYO MAIPAPAKITA ANG PAGMAMAHAL NYO SA PILIPINASKUNG WALa NA KAYONG GAWANG MATINO KUNDIMAG-RALLY AT MAMUNDOK??!!! ISA PA YANG MGA MAYAYAMAN AT MGA ARTISTA, NANANGDADAYA AT HINDI NAGBABAYAD NG BUWIS. ANGKAKAPAL NG MUKHA NYO! ANG DAMI NYO NA NGANG PERANANGDADAYA PA KAYO SA TAX!!!! HINDI NYO NAMAN MADADALASA IMPIERNO YANG MGA KAYAMAN NYO. MASUSUNOG LANGDUN YAN. KAYA LALONG BUMABAGSAK ANG NEGOSYO DITO SA PILIPINAS,KASI MGA NEGOSYANTE MANDARAYA. PATISHOWBIZ INDUSTRY, BAGSAK NA DIN. KARMA ANG TAWAGDYAN. MGA BALASUBAS KASI. Sana magkaron ng POLITICAL AND NATIONAL CLEANSING. Alisin (mas maganda kung patayin na lang) ang lahat ngpulitiko at political families sa puwesto. Tibagin ang lahat ng mapanirang organizations at grupo. Itapon sa malayong isla o kayai-pwersa ng hard labor ang mga sobrang tamad na mga Pilipino. Ihiwalay ang mga bata sa kanilang mgatamad at tangang magulang upang makapag-aral sila at maturuan na maging mabuting tao at mamamayan.Magkaron ng bagong lider na walang political ties at utang na loob sa kahit sino. At higit sa lahat, dapat tax payers lang ang pwedeng bumoto! Kung kinakailangang magka-giyera para magtino ang mgaPilipino, ayos lang. Masyado na kasing matigasang ulo ng mga tao dito. Gusto ng kalayaan, pero hindi naman handang panagutan ang responsibilidadng pagiging malaya. Meron daw pinaglalaban naprinsipyo at adhikain pero takot namang mamatay para dito. (Sa mga nakaka-alam sa anime na Gundam Wing, yan anginspirasyon ko sa new Pinas hehe. I love youZechs! I love you Treize!) Hangga’t hindi nagkakaron ng radical change, patuloyna walang kwenta ang Pilipinas at patuloy namagiging tanga ang majority ng mga Pilipino. Sa dami ng nag-mi-migrate na Pilipino sa ibang bansa,dadating ang panahon na minority na lang ngpopulation sa Pilipinas ang may utak. Yung mgamagagaling na Pilipino, malamang maubos na. Sobra nakasi silang na-fru-frustrate at na-de-depresssa mga nakikita nila. Ilang taon pa at aalis na rin ako sa Pilipinas. Wala kong balak na magkaron ng pamilya sa isang bansa na hindi pinapahalagahan ang kontribusyon ng mga taong tunay na bumubuhay dito. Kawawa naman ang magiging anak ko kung dito sya mabubuhay.

Sa totoo lang, broken hearted ako. Minahal ko din angbansang ito. Pilit kong pinagtatanggol kahit bulok.Nakarating na ko ng ibang bansa, pero pinili kongbumalik. Pero ngayon, ayoko na. Suko na ko. Sayanglang ako sa bansang to. Simple lang naman anghiling ko. Gusto ko lang mabuhay ng tahimik atmaayos. Gusto ko na kahit paano eh maipagmalaki ang Pilipinas. Pero wala eh. Doomed to be jologsang bansang to. Alam ko marami pa ang umaasa at naniniwala sapagbabago. Good luck and God bless! Sana tama kayoat mali ako.

the most beautiful piece of writing i've come across in a looooooooooooooooong time! whoever you are, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! about time someone spoke their mind around here. sobrang totoo lahat ng pinagsusulat nya and to those who don't understand tagalog, please let a friend translate it for you. worthwhile read, kahit mahaba.... it's like the author went into my brain and heart and wrote all my thoughts and frustrations and bitterness and anger and sadness and desperation all into this one email. one of the nest forwards in a long while.

"k" marks the spot

so... been so long since i've written in here... well, i barely get enough sleep lately and i've just been so tired from work and now i have to bring my dog to the vet yet again bcoz he's been biting himself on his hind legs and now he's kinda bleeding =( i dunno what it is, but i hope it's just something not serious... gosh

highlight of the month was when i got my tattooÜÜÜ the one thing i've been wanting since high school... the design's kinda complicated: it's someone's symbol but i dunno if she copyrighted it, so if yes, sorry! it just has so many meanings to me and it sums up a lot of who i am... if i get to photograph it, i'll post it hereÜ

so far, saw mr&mrs smith and it was ok. the thing that surprised me the most was how funny it was and how funny brad and angelina were... waiting to see war of the worlds and (this is so 2006) the sentinel (kiefer!!!!) and for those of you not in the know, rent the musical is a movie and will be out this nov, stars rosario dawson and a lot of the original cast from the playÜ can't wait!!!! also for davinci code... i would've liked it if kiefer were in it, but hell! i hope tom doesn't screw this one up!

well, au voir! later.

ang saya!

THIS IS DEFINITELY MY DAY... haha! got a tattoo! fi-fucking-nally!!!Ü i'll put up a picture once i get someone to take it (it's on my back...) hurt like a mother but it was all good... it's my dream to have one since h.s...... and THEN i watched mr. & mrs. smith... so you can only imagine... i haven't had sleep for more than 24 hrs now... uhm... going on 28 hrs w/o any z's... i've done this b4, don't worry;) i also got to shop for clothes and stuff, so the day was productiveÜ

loved the movie... i thought brad and angelina really clicked, no wonder all those "rumors" started... go check it out; it's worth the hype.

only downside? i have to work tom night =(

OH HAPPY DAY!

JUST SAW THE MOST AWESOME MOVIE BY FAR THIS YEAR: STAR WARS 3 - REVENGE OF THE SITH. nuff said. hehe. the most amazing special effects, the most emotionally charged of ALL of the trilogies, and (i may go overboard, but what the hell!) in my opinion, the BEST of them all. i mean, this is THE most anticipated of all movies! the previous two were just the stepping stones if you may, to what the fans and curious ones have been REALLY wanting to see: how sweet anakin became the most feared, powerful (and hated) jedi of all.

from the very beginning, the movie was really buzzing with electricity, non-stop action and one of the classic lines delivered ("i have a bad feeling about this") early on by beloved obi-wan, played so beautifully and masterfully by my crush, ewan mcgregorÜ my fave scene was towards the end when padme said "anakin, you're breaking my heart". i mean, that whole scene at the landing area at the lava or whatever hell place that was. when hayden christensen really displayed his acting chops. i agree with lucas's decision to make the hayden subtlely play the transformation in AOTC; it really worked because we get to see the full impact of being influenced by the dark side. the thing that got to me was that it's the biggest irony: anakin sacrificed himself, really, just so padme could live, but in the end, he was the one who ultimately did what he feared the most. i just love the epicness of it all. i now understand that love played a big part in his reverting to the dark side, it was just twisted because he was really just a lonely, confused guy. i mean, take away all the battle scenes/sfx, and you're left with a REALLY GOOD story, guys! lucas outdid himself on this one, and what a way to go! really loved hayden in this one. i was impressed, just really singing his praises!

as usual, natalie and ewan didn't disappoint. i read in one article that natalie hated that she didn't get to participate in any of the action, but in truth, she saw more "action" in this one than in any of the others. i just loved that she was the vulnerable padme and that her love was greater than anything that she was willing to die for it.(sob!) ewan as obi-wan in this one also outdid himself. the part where he said "you were my brother. i loved you" was just priceless. you really FEEL it. and for a sci-fi movie, that's big.

the music and the familiar tones incorporated from the previous trilogy was just great! as a fan, this did not disappoint at all. and telling the history of how things came to be for the first saga was just beautiful. it all came to place, finally... tied the two trilogies so beautifully and seamlessly. goosebumps all over! perfect 10. a must-see!!!! over and over and over again! i plan to watch it again! WEE!!!